addicition

I,VE MADE MY LIFE SO HARD,HAVING COCAN IN MY LIFE.MY DPNL GOT CUT OFF A FEW DAYS AGO AND WE'VE BEEN CHILLIN IN THE DARK FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS.LAST NIGHT MY BOYFRIEND GO PAYED WITHIN A HOUR IT WAS ALL SPENT ON CRACK.OUR DPNL BILL IS 417.00,AND I DONT KNOW WHAT WE ARE GONNA DO.I DONT HAVE A JOB AT THE MOMENT,SO MY BOYFRIEND IS THE ONLY1 WORKING.I AM SO DEPRESSED,ITHINK I AM BOUT 2 MENTELLY SHUT DOWN.ALL I HAVE BEEN DOIN FOR PAST  FEW DAYZ IS CRYING,CRYING BE I BROUGHT ALL THIS ON MY SELF.I AM GONNA GO TO MY PARENTS HOUSE FOR THE WEEKEND,I JUST NEED TO GET OUT 4 A FEW DAYS.