lost love

So

theres this guy Jake and i
have serious feelings for him...hes a senior this year
and he plays football and hes sooo cute and i told him
that i liked him and all he could do was smile at me and
walk away and i dont know how to take that... He as well
as well as the rest of the varsity dyed their hair blonde
since we made it playoffs for the first time in 10 years
and today i finally got to see that long brown hair back
on him and i couldnt help but smile.. when im around him
i cant smile and i cant speak other than hey or good game
i went after the game when we played celina to try and
tell him and i couldnt even form the words it was sad and
i felt so stupid for not bein able to say Jake I like you
and i dont know why.

So i dont know what to do im
so tired of being single but when i like a guy my parents
always find something worng with them... or the ones i
like dont have the same feelings for me and that sucks
because who wants to like someone and know that they dont
feel the same and never will but i guess in time i will
find someone but this waiting game is KILLING me but idk
the one guy i liked smootherd me he was insucure and all
that and mom loved him and i was ready to get rid of
em...