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Ok so I have been thinking of doing this for some time now. So I finally decide to go ahead and do. Here is a little about me.

I am a 31 year old single mom of 2 beautiful kids. My oldest is going to be 13 year old in January and my youngest turned 4 years old in July. After I had my youngest I decide to go back to school. I am just finishing up my AA degree. I took my time and I am happy about it. With my learning disability I am glad I took my time. Now I am working on my transfer units. I am not sure if I am going to continue. I would love to but, I am scared that I will not be able to keep up with the work. So I am going to get the transfer units done with and maybe take on class at a time to see how I do. In the mean time I am looking for a full time job.

I am also in the process of looking for a new place to live. The place and the people we live with right now was just a temporary thing, and it is going on 5 years. So it's time for us to get back on our own again. It is really hard being on welfare and working part time you still don't make enough for the rent. Section 8 is not open in our county and the low income apartments have a long waiting list. So I am putting my name on waiting list and have to wait to see what happens. I could really use some good luck on this one.

I guess you can say my family is in the process of finding my "husband". I have been single going on 5 years now. Being the only sister/daughter that is not married really sucks. I use to think I would be one of the first ones to get married. Well that didn't happen. It is hard because now when we do family things I am the one that doesn't have a boyfriend or husband to bring with me and it sucks. I am always hearing so when is it your turn to get married. If I knew that I would be telling everyone. There are times now that I wonder if I will ever find the right one. Or did I already find the right one and mess it up? Or if I am the marrying type? I have been told by some people that they don't ever see me getting married. Yes that bugs the crapt out of me and I let it get to me. Yes I know I shouldn't but its hard not to. The fact that I am 31 years old and, have not been in a relationship in the last 5 years. Makes me wonder if it will every happen.  I haven't been putting myself out there in the last 5 years because I was working really hard on my schooling and being a mother. Right now those two things are biggest things I am working for. Now that I am almost finished with my AA degree I can start getting out there.

Now time will only tell. We will see what happens.

For now, talk to you later

Lilred