Serendipity...

Beginning. Fear, scared, afraid. Fear of the unknown, fear of the future, fear of losing the one that I found, the one that has made me happy... happier than I have been, happier than I knew I could be. Scared of the future, scared of ruining what I have, ruining what I could have, ruining a good thing. Afraid of what could be, what may not be, what will be.

i'm not quite sure how to breathe
without you here
i'm not quite sure if I'm ready to say goodbye
to all we were
be with me
stay with me
just for now
let the time decide when i won't need you
my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me
can i feel any more
lie to me, i'm fading
i can't drop you
tell me i don't need you
my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me
etch this into my brain for me
tell me how its supposed to be
where everything will go
and how i'll be without you by my side
my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me
my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me

When the whites of your eyes come through
You'll see something new
With your body and mine raised up
It's good to see you back home
When the life in your eyes wants black
Things return
You've come back
With your body and mine raised up
It's good to see you once more
Turn black tables
And your turning black tables
And your making your head blur
Making your head blur
And your turning black tables
And your turning black tables
And your making your head blur
Making your head blur

Where were you the day they stole our innocence?
And arranged a sacrifice for everyone in town.
To bore the words yet to be written underground
To save the money on the kerosene they need.
Were you awake or were you sleeping?
Or just too afraid to disagree?

Well I don't wanna sing about freedom anymore.
I wanna see it! I wanna feel it!
I wanna know that it still sits beyond the lies that we've been told
beyond the wars that keep our families from home,
I know that there's a way.
Dear God, let there be a way
to change the path we're on (path we're on).
...and believe in a better day.

Our dreams are their worst nightmares, these songs a call to arms
we can dance on the graves that held us, we can change the course of time

Stand up and fight, save yourself,
strike, the time is now
You and me, we are more like sheep, (more like sheep)
forced to march crippled feet to the slaughter

I'll stand on principle, banner lifted and a fist raised high
Filthy soul with a patriot heart, dancing rhythms in a world apart

But you and me, we can live like thieves
on the dreams that we stole from their fears

Casting pearls before swine, hanging dead on the vine
Can we strive to be so much more than this?

You and me, we are more like sheep, (more like sheep)
forced to march crippled feet to the slaughter
to the slaughter
to the slaughter
to the slaughter

Beauty over wisdom to fit in with their styles
Your Cinderella story's for a price
Vanity's a business built to please the unique
Silicone and stars collide, the rest will fall in line
Just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
Visually you're stimulating to my eyes
Your Cinderella syndrome's full of lies
Your insecurities are concealed by your pride
Pretty soon your ego will kill what's left inside
Just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
It's so pitiful what you are
As beautiful as you are
You should have seen this coming all along
You're everything that's so typical
Maybe you're alone for a reason
You're the reason
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
Just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
It's so pitiful what you are
As beautiful as you are
You should have seen this coming all along

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

When the thorn bush turns white thats when I'll come home,
I am going out to see what i can sow,
And i don't know where I'll go,
But i don't know what I'll see,
But I'll try not to bring it back home with me.
Like the morning sun your eyes will follow me,
As you watch me wander, curse the power that be,
'Cos all i want is here and now,
But its already been and gone,
Our attentions always last that bit too long.
Ooh ooh,
Far far away, no voices sounding, no one around me, and you're still there.
Far far away,no choices passing, no time confounding, and you're still there.
In the Full moon's light i listen to the stream,
And in between the sounds i still hear you calling me,
But i don't know where i am,
And i don't trust who I've been,
And If i come home how will i ever leave?
Ooh, ooh

I’ll seek you out,
Flay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour
I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain
I’m taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace
I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain
Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze
And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace

Lie in this empty bed
With this aching head
You left me here this morning
Now I can't remember why
I let you in again
To get under my skin
And every time you disappear
I remember
How I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say...
I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid
Now there's no place like home
To make me feel alone
I see you everywhere I am
And I remember how you ran out to hide
You kept me close behind
Following your every move so I remember
I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say...
I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid
I look for you
But I can't see your face
Then I hear you
The only thing you say is
Don't look for me
Cause you will never say
You won't hear me
You won't hear me
Why do we keep this up?
Why do we live like us?
When there is nothing left to save
Will you be afraid?
I am afraid right now
You already let me down
You are the one who can't be saved
If only I could say
I am afraid right now
You never will get out
You'll never let yourself be saved
You are so afraid
You are so afraid

Sick of circling the same road
Sick of bearing the guilt
So open the windows to cool off
And heat pours in instead
Perfect in weakness
I'm only perfect in just your strength alone
All my efforts to clean me
Leave me putrid and filthy
And how can you look at me
When I can't stand myself
I'm tired to be honest
I'm nobody
Perfect in weakness
I'm only perfect in just your strength alone
Perfect in weakness
I'm only running in just your strength alone
I tried to kill you
You tried to save me
You save me
You save me
You save me
You save me
Perfect in weakness
I'm only perfect in just your strength alone
Perfect in weakness
I'm only running in just your strength alone

Can you hear my heart beat in this bond
Do you know that behind of this bond
Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
All my dreams to be all I can do
Only I love, only love
And you say I knew we should find a new way
Make a wonderful love if I may
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Do you know that behind of this hurt
Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
All my dreams to be all I can do
Only I love, only love
And you say I knew we should find a new way
Make a wonderful love if I may
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Do you know that behind of this hurt
Lies the deep desire can you love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
Make a wonderful love if I may
Make a wonderful love if I may
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt

Wait it out till the light
Take a breathe, say good night
But don't ever go away
Wait around to find the time
Only you can take what's mine
But don't ever go away
I'll be waiting... I need to let it go
Fade it out into the light
All these years we never get it right
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
No more reasons to defy
That I believed that you were mine
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
A chance to change or stay the same
One night with out the blame
That don't ever go away
Only you can make it right
To walk away with out a fight
But don't ever go away
I'll be waiting... I need to let it go
Fade it out into the light
All these years we never get it right
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
No more reasons to defy
That I believed that you were mine
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I wish you'd let me go...

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Can I ask you a question please
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let in the morning light and let the darkness fade away
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?
Drowning in my loneliness
How long must I hold my breath
So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
One last year has come and gonne
It's time to let your love rain down on me
Can you turn my black roses red?
Cuz
I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love
Can you turn my black roses red?
Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame in on love
I'm feeling like I'll blame it on love (until fades)

Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for the 20 years.
I love trying to make conversation
when I could careless of what you're doing,
what are you doing? And I know you never cared 'till now.
All my days go back to when you would scream.
And it froze me.
Guess the screaming runs in the family.
You look tired and run-down.
Are you even excited to see your baby boy?
Put a razor to the skin 'till we don't resemble each other anymore.
Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for the 20 years.
So now I see the tears welling up,
finally you care I've waited all my life for this.
It's always been over, it's always been over, it's always been over for us.
A single tear, a last resort for all who've never felt.
Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for these 20 years.
If I could flip this table I'd stab you with every word
that lied its way out of your head.

So here we are again
I see fork in the road
I hate you, you love me
this stories getting old
the day that I opened up
you shut me out for good
forgive! forget!
fuck you are a liar and a whore!
so take what you want and leave
you´ll never get another part of
I remember the day I
thought I would be free
I poured out my soul to you
exposed everything
next thing I know my hearts broke
my hand is much the same
I did my best to drink you away!
So take what you want and leave
you´ll never get another part of
you are poison on mans lips
lured in by the curves of your hips
come here boy stand by me
look my way have another drink
I should of got up...
I should of got up and left you
And I will never be your lover again
as far as I´m concerned
we are not even friends
this may not seem to subtle to you
the point I´m trying to make
is we are completely through
So take what you want and leave
you´ll never get another part of
You are poison on mans lips
lured in by the curves of your hips
come here boy stand by me
look my way have another drink

I feel eyelashes on my cheek, and they lacerate my flesh.
A pain so good.
So put your hand in mine, never let go, never wake up 'cause I'm done with promises.
I'm taking blood oaths.
Feels like you kiss my imperfections,
My imperfections away.
And I would stand,
Stand by your side.
Until the sun turns the sky all the colors I see in your eyes,
And I never need to see the sun again.
There is enough light in your eyes to light up all the world
So take me, Take me away.
Kill me slowly, I'll never be the same
I swear to you, On everything I am.
And I dedicate to you all that I am
I promise you that I'll stand right by your side,
Forever and always, until the day I die.
The bite marks on my neck never felt so good
Im losing control, and its all that I can do not to blackout, and fall into lust with you.
Your kisses infect me, the dark gift is loving you.
And I feel immortal, and I want to make you feel the same.
So stand by me as well immolate.
We can burn in each other's arms.
And I feel immortal, and I want to make you feel the same.
So stand by me as well immolate.
We can burn in each other's arms.

Risk-taking, trust, and serendipity are key ingredients of joy. Without risk, nothing new ever happens. Without trust,fear creeps in. Without serendipity, there are no surprises.

Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you've found is more suited to your needsthan what you thought you were looking for.

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real.

So show a little inspiration, show a little spark, show the world a little act when you show it your heart, we've got two lives--one we're given, and the other one we make, and the world won't stop, and actions speak louder, listen to yourheart.

Jealousy is the most dreadfully involuntary of all sins.

Jealousy is the greatest of all evils, and the one which arouses the least pity in the person who causes it.

To cure jealousy is to see it for what it is, a dissatisfaction with self.

Jealousy lives upon doubts. It becomes madness or ceases entirely as soon as we pass from doubt to certainty.

Jealousy is a disease, love is a healthy condition. The immature mind often mistakes one for the other, or assumes thatthe greater the love, the greater the jealousy -- in fact, they're almost incompatible; one emotion hardly leaves roomfor the other. Both at once can produce unbearable turmoil...

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who getsburned.

Speak when you are angry - and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity withoutit.

No man is worth your tears, but once you find one that is, he won't make you cry.

What is love? Love is when one person knows all of your secrets... your deepest, darkest, most dreadful secrets of which no one else in the world knows... and yet in the end, that one person does not think any less of you; even if the rest of the world does.

I would rather have eyes that cannot see; ears that cannot hear; lips that cannot speak, than a heart that cannot love.

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

There are four questions of value in life... What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.

Love is like an earthquake-unpredictable, a little scary, but when the hard part is over you realize how lucky you trulyare

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie underthe stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses yourforehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends,who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares andhow lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'

You know it ain't easy for these thoughts here to leave me. There's no words to describe it in French or in English.Well, diamonds they fade, and flowers they bloom. And I'm telling you these feelings won't go away. They've beenknockin' me sideways. They've been knockin' me out lately. Whenever you come around me these feelings won't goaway. They've been knockin' me sideways. I keep thinking in a moment that time will take them away but thesefeelings won't go away.

I start to feel like I can't maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew whatwas wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don't know. Why does the rest of the world put upwith the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don't know theanswer, I know only that I can't. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. Ijust want out. I've had it. I am so tired. I am twenty and I am already exhausted.

Love the music in yourself, not yourself in the music.

Music is love in search of a word.

I think people who can truly live a life in music are telling the world, "You can have my love, you can have mysmiles. Forget the bad parts, you don't need them. Just take the music, the goodness, because it's the very best, and it'sthe part I give."

I think music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. It's something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music.

Wanting something is not enough. You must hunger for it. Your motivation must be absolutely compelling in order toovercome the obstacles that will invariably come your way.

Hold up... hold on... don't be scared. You'll never change what's been and gone. May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared. Your destiny may keep you warm.

You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.

Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do.

Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed.

Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely.

Do not brood over your past mistakes and failures as this will only fill your mind with grief, regret and depression. Do not repeat them in the future.

Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you.

Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and lessthan perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, moreand more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.

What makes life worth living is knowing that one day you'll wake up and find the person that makes you happier thananything in the whole world. So don't ever lose hope and give up, everything turns out okay and the good guy alwayswins.

We all know, from what we experience with and within ourselves, that our conscious acts spring from our desires andour fears. Intuition tells us that that is true also of our fellows and of the higher animals. We all try to escape pain anddeath, while we seek what is pleasant. We are all ruled in what we do by impulses; and these impulses are soorganized that our actions in general serve for our self preservation and that of the race. Hunger, love, pain, fear aresome of those inner forces which rule the individual's instinct for self preservation. At the same time, as social beings,we are moved in the relations with our fellow beings by such feelings as sympathy, pride, hate, need for power, pity,and so on. All these primary impulses, not easily described in words, are the springs of man's actions. All such actionwould cease if those powerful elemental forces were to cease stirring within us. Though our conduct seems so verydifferent from that of the higher animals, the primary instincts are much alike in them and in us. The most evidentdifference springs from the important part which is played in man by a relatively strong power of imagination and bythe capacity to think, aided as it is by language and other symbolical devices. Thought is the organizing factor in man,intersected between the causal primary instincts and the resulting actions. In that way imagination and intelligenceenter into our existence in the part of servants of the primary instincts. But their intervention makes our acts to serveever less merely the immediate claims of our instincts.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with theresults of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And mostimportant, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want tobecome. Everything else is secondary.

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't missyou. But I did, I do, and I will.

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.

Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and cannot remain silent.

Music is what feelings sound like.

Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally stumbles upon something fortunate, especially while looking for something entirely unrelated.

it's been so long, and tin cans and string for years
is all that we've known, could it be you're really here

'cause my eyes are open, and everything still moves in slow-motion,
breathless and blue, and behind your eyes the sea
oceans of light envelop me

but things can't be as they seem, I'm so far from home
this must be another dream, but my eyes are open

and everything still moves in slow-motion,
breathless and blue, and behind your eyes the sea
oceans of light envelop me

my eyes are open, and everything still moves in slow-motion,
breathless and blue, and behind your eyes the sea
oceans of light envelop me