last night God sent a big sloppy ball of grace my way and it smacked me in the face. it was wonderful. it was also hard to accept. as i layed on the couch hiding from my wife scared of failing her again she dosn't ignore me, she doens't demand i quit being selfish and come to bed, she sits down beside me and gently rubs my back and head and so sweetly asks if i'm ready to come to bed. i don't say a word for at least 10 minutes but she dosn't grow impatient. i'm so lucky and so blessed. God please help me be a man. give me the strength and courage to to fight for our marriage and her heart, to fight to know you more deeply everyday.