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Scott P got married a few weeks ago.  I can't even begin to describe the level of devastation.  To be honest, I have no right to be upset.  He's been engaged for a while now, and I just got married not too long ago.  Yet you see someone at work every night, and you develop this relationship that you can't even explain to anyone.  And it's not like I want an actual relationship with Scotty.  He is far from the ideal boyfriend material.  He's moody and obnoxious, and there are times when I absolutely despise him.  How can you be so attracted to someone you can't stand?  Four years.  Four years these lusty feelings of attraction have been building up for him, and now?  Now I have to find a way to let go.  He's not mine.  He's taken, and so am I.  And yet I can't help but fantasize about just making out with him.  I know that it's wrong.  God if there is anyone who is the wrong person, he is just all kinds of wrong.  But I can't help it.  Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be wrong....