The Daily Jaymie

Hey,
I'm to young to be having guy troubles, I really am but that won't stop it from happening. Before Clint I didn't believe in love which wasn't saying much because I don't believe in a lot. I've haven't had a good history with guys, my dad left when I was five and I was raped at twelve (I'm also very blunt.) Anyways he was best friends with my best friends brothers, and we hated each other from the beginning but there was no way around it. We both weren't giving up are friends and it took us months just to realize we were attracted to each other. He knew everything about me, why I was so distant in relationships and why I was always so guarded around guys. I'm not like alot girls, I dont like jewlery or pink, I love standing on the couch rooting for my favorite football team, and I'm so stubborn I'll argue with a wall. He knew all of this and he was the only guy I knew to accept me the way I was. We fell in love and like all love stories it ended, but it didn't end happily.. But the thing is I'm not a girl to show my feelings so yes I may be dying in the inside but I won't regret anything, he taught me how to love and I'll never forget that but I won't dwell on the past.

Now for the real problems. I have few guy friends but the ones I do have, I'm friends with for a reason. I'm not one to let guys get close to me (if it wasn't already obvious) but before me and Clint had started talking I had been getting to know this guy named Jordan. He wasn't like a lot guys (and yes I'm aware they all say that.. But if you met him you would know) and our friendship grew the same as me and Clint's relationship did. As me and Clint's relationship came to an end, Jordan and me hadn't been talking as much but we were still close. Well it had been a month since I'd talked to either Clint or Jordan but it didn't last long. Jordan messaged me not to many days ago and said that we needed to talk, I thought he had wanted to talk about why he'd been away so long but when we went out to eat that day he confessed his feelings and said the reason he had stayed away is because I loved someone else and he couldn't bare to see me with him. He told me to think it over, and the same night I was suppose to be thinking it over Clint calls me asking me how I've been and if I missed him.

So my conclusion to all this: THIS IS WHY I DON'T DATE! All I did was actually fall in love with somebody and let it take its course and then when it left, I moved on and now it's like everyone wants a peice. I'm to young for this.. I don't know how you other girls do it!

Sincerely Nobodys,
Jaymie Ann