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I don't really know what to do about this anymore. I've tried to convince them over and over to let me go but they keep saying no. I feel like this summer isn't going as planned. I want so much that I can't have right now. I'm not being greedy. But recently ive taught myself not to give up easily. Oliver graduated high school the other night. It was pretty sad, actually. I have so much on my mind but for some reason can't put it in to words. I just want everything to start getting better. I want dad to get this job. I want to lose weight. I want to go to summer school. I want my own room. I want to move. I want to have more independence and be able to do things for myself.