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how is it that things can change so fast...i mean i still feel like i have god in my heart but man its so hard....my  parents blocked the internet and that stupid....and i got in a huge fight with my friends last week. We are good now but i still feel all screwed up...and my parents don't make me feel better about it. i am off the a.d.d medicine and my friend rachel said that i seem not so up and down with my emotions but i still have this emtpieness in me...and i am trusting God..what is wrong jezz.....:( i just want to feel loved and i have this loniness in me still....thanksgiving was great with my cousins but like everyone is growing up sooooo fast lol its kinda funny looking at everyone and seeing how diff. we all look. i will write in u soon but for now i have to go. bye.