I feel like I keep getting further and further away from the goal, but the short term goals I have attained give me the false belief that I am on the "righteous" pathway, but am I? How will I know? Who will point it out to me that Iam far far from the dream or the dreamed career? Where and how will this develope into something that there is no return. In reality like a companero explained it to me once before and not long ago. "This isn't about [me]". The life I strive for is for them, the ones that represent the next generation; the generation I hope to see live after me. I'm excited and ethusiastic for the future. Yes, Iam.