Here is the poem::
I??m a waste of your time. Why are you doing this? You don??t know me. You??re drunk right now. You??re crazy. We??re the complete opposite? I don??t feel anything about anything. I??m going to marry someone someday and there??s things they??ll never know about me. Why are you doing this? Let??s just go dance with everyone else, let??s just go dance? You should wear dresses more often, you know why.

Of course we??re still friends. You shouldn??t feel anything about anything. I??ll miss you too? don??t feel like an idiot. It??s ok.

Today I look across the bridge and see the gap
You and me at opposite ends of the road
You??re headed toward a storm and I??m headed toward a rainbow.
I come from the other side of the tracks
Where feelings are explosions
That tick tock like clocks and detonate when probed
Censorship of the self is like a sin
You see where I??m from non-expression of feelings is crucifixion
Slow suicide in the middle of the night in a dark place where no one can find you.

Today you walk across the bridge without bothering to look back
Staring into something no one can even point their finger on
Not even you.
Across I become blurry and it doesn??t seem to bother you
You can??t hear me singing your favorite songs in my most obnoxious voice
Singing to you like there??s no tomorrow
Making up lyrics as I go along
Lyrics about you and me
In hopes that perhaps you??ll turn around and say anything?.
In hopes that you??ll believe me someday, but someday soon.
But you keep heading somewhere else in a straight line like nothing really matters, not even mending your broken spirit.

So off we travel through the freeways of life
Tied to each other as we are apart, like arteries and veins
Only because the thing that connects us is that we share the earth we step on and the oxygen we breathe.
Everything else is irrelevant.
The only thoughts in my head exist as flying keys willing to unlock all the doors and today I learned not everyone is willing to do the same.
Some people lock themselves up and throw away the key,
Leading directionless lives for no reason at all, never wondering why.

Today I gather the strength to try to understand
Today I crave emotional apathy more than food.
I crave a cave where I too can bottle everything up and never think about anything.
There is no fortress around me.
I won??t accept one from anybody when you work so hard to make sure no one knocks yours down.
I won??t censor myself because everything around me is real, to be listened to, touched, explored, enjoyed, kissed and even hurt by.

Today I believe the words someone once said? sometimes you??ve just got to let it go, don??t feel anything about it just?. let?.. it?. go??

You fucked up?.. No one??s ever beat me at this?..you win.

what?

i said you win

huh?

no one??s ever beat me at this? you win.

sorry i couldn??t quite catch that?. I couldn??t quite catch you

??exasperated breath??
you win!