June 1, 2007

 

Well, I have effectively lost two journal entries. Not that I care though. This whole exercise is nothing more than a way to clarify my thoughts and clear my head. After I write it I feel like I have accomplished the task. Whether it is gets lost in cyberspace or not is irrelevant. I don’t care if anyone sees it. It’s just a way to get everything out.

 

June 2, 2007

 

The past couple of days have been crazy. I haven’t been able to write like I want to. In fact, I wasn’t even able to finish what I had started yesterday. I am constantly interrupted and I just don’t have a spare moment ……Even now I am being constantly interrupted! I’ve been trying to write this little bit and it’s taken about half an hour. *sigh*

 

Okay, there went another 15 minutes. Salesman at the door. Maybe this journaling thing won’t work. Being a mother of two very energetic children, helping a family get back on their feet by having them live with us, and trying to keep the house clean has taken any amount of spare time I can afford……be back again *sigh*…….

 

Okay, there went another 15 minutes……..This is becoming ridiculous. Is it possible for a mother with so many things on her plate to do? I haven’t had hardly any time whatsoever to even draw lately…..That’s the worst part really – not being able to draw or paint because time isn’t allowing it. I feel like I am withering inside because of it. I really need to draw and paint. To not do it is like not being able to drink water. This is a great cause of frustration for me.

 

The other day we were tracked down and basically accused of giving everyone the flu at a party. Nevermind the fact that we weren’t even at the party in question and their symptoms weren’t even the same as the symptoms we suffered with nearly 2 weeks ago. But these wonderful Christian people somehow have blamed us for it. It is the most ridiculous thing we have ever heard! Over the past 12 years we’ve been called demon possessed, unbiblical, trouble makers, heretics……but never bio terrorists! LOL! It is just the funniest thing we have ever been blamed for. Paul and I have been laughing ourselves silly for the past 2 days! We aren’t mad at all, or even hurt. It’s just too darn funny to get upset over. I mean, who in their right mind would try to track down where the flu came from?? The flu is going around so badly right now one of them could have gotten it from the store and then in turn gave it to everyone at the party. I actually think it was the meat at the party. Only the people who ate the meat got sick. So this has been a great cause of fits of laughter!! It’s just so funny!

 

Yesterday Paul got a call from his principle saying that one of his students was arrested for murder over the weekend. Apparently it was a random act of violence, too. No reason for it whatsoever. And seeing as this boy is 18 he’s looking at a possibility of Death Row. This sent Paul into a tailspin and really bothered him. He felt so badly and wondered if he should have said some things differently, done something to help him…..He knows he can’t blame himself for it, but the “what if’s” plague him. It has been very hard for him to deal with. It was quite a blow. His heart goes out to the family of the victim.

 

It seems that lately life is full of distractions. Everytime we try to get together with Joe and Hope something comes up to stop it. Sickness of the kids, tooth pain emergency, stuff……We both feel like it is very important that we get together and pray but it just doesn’t seem to happen. Something keeps stopping us. It sure does make one wonder…….